My apologies for the cob webs that have collected here as I have not posted in MONTHS. I started just sharing more of my journey on my facebook posts. But this blog is a place where I can provide a lot more detail.
First off- I SO SO appreciate all of you who read my blog. It lets you in on my life and journey and provides awareness of just how life stealing and serious auto immune disease can be.
The main reason I've been slacking is because I've been living a lot more since plexus came into my life. At first it was the honeymoon stage of this initial reactions and pure joy of " oh my gosh, I CAN get out of bed!!" with a whole lot of " I CAN's" to follow as opposed to living with a whole lot of " I can't. :/
What I want people to know is yes my life has been flip upside down since beginning plexus products. However I still live with these diseases in my body and I still question God on why. I cope with it more KNOWING HE HAS A PLAN for it all and that I don't have to lay in bed all the time. But I would be lying if I didn't say I don't still ask for true complete healing, diagnosis free, lab results negative in my prayers EVERYDAY.
I never want to HIDE anything about the struggle. Because I did that for too long and I realized people didn't get it- not even my own family. I pride myself on being a person of authenticity and a truth teller so I want to tell you how it is and be completely real, honest and open. And also because I need people to get it. We all do. It's so much less of a struggle when we have others to come along side us in our struggles.
I get frustrated when claims are made and when you talk to that person directly the claims don't seem to be what they are. A lot of people have commented on my post being excited for me that my life has changed so dramatically since beginning plexus and it absolutely has! There is so much I couldn't do before that I now can. But there is still so much I am unable to do because of this F&*%-Up disease that for now I still have to deal with.
My wrist fused when they were inflamed badly for about 2 and half years straight. So I lost so much function and fine motor skills in my hands. I have pain as I type this. I still can't open a water bottle or put a pillow in a pillow case. I can't shoot a basketball ( a sport I love and coached) but I don't focus on those things I focus on what I CAN do like bathe myself on my own and dress myself, walk, make a meal again, comb my daughters hair, vacuum (sometimes), decorate my Christmas tree with my daughter, walk on beach sand with out much struggle or pain. Eat something that not AIP approved and not be left bedridden because of it. I can HUG my daughter and she can sit in my lap- she REALLY makes up for lost time with this doing it like 10 times or more a day!!
So has plexus cured me from RA or lupus? No it hasn't. But what it has done is priceless. It has decreased my pain so much and it has made me have energy again. It tackled my anemia and I am no longer anemic. It has restored my relationships with several friends and family. It has been a financial blessing to my family. Ill never stop sharing plexus. Since sharing I have witnessed 5 RA warriors experience relief like I have and for that a lone it is FAR worth it!
This blog will begin being about a lot more then just living with auto immune. :)
Saturday, November 28, 2015
Tuesday, June 30, 2015
DEL TACO PLEASE
I could never wish to " un-know" all that I have become aware of about food, nutrition and disease. But what I now struggle with is envying people who don't know the harm standard food can do and even worse I envy that they can eat it without it affecting them like it does me. Pray for me about this- its an issue and makes it hard to go anywhere.
Yes, bad food still taste good to me. I wish for a del taco burrito, a donut, ice cream. All of it! But for me those things equal disability, pain, fatigue and rashes. Horrible itchy, flakey, uncontrollable rashes. ( which I currently have from medication+ camping food+sun) So I am on detox.
You would think since I have been eating better now for years it would get easier, but it doesn't. Actually, I shouldn't say that- it is easier and I do crave good food. But every once in a while I want bad food and I wish I could get to a place to never want the bad food EVER!
This post comes at a time of: DAY 1 all over again of NO SUGAR!! No fruit, NOTHING. Today I had eggs with cilantro and chicken for breakfast. For lunch I had a arugula salad with chicken and for dinner I had free range ground beef with bell peppers. Today wasn't that hard but we will see how tomorrow goes.
I do this because I know sugar feeds disease. I also know I have candida. I want to be fully healthy. Plexus is helping me get there but I also need to do my part and I think the candida needs to be COMPLETELY starved if I am ever going to completely heal.
I have come so far from spending most days in bed- but I want to go farther. I want to reach the point that one day I can have that del taco burrito and it has no affect on me. I want to get to a place where I experience NO PAIN and I want to have strong muscles on my body. It's going to take time. I would love your prayers and encouragement along the way!! :) Thanks for reading!
Yes, bad food still taste good to me. I wish for a del taco burrito, a donut, ice cream. All of it! But for me those things equal disability, pain, fatigue and rashes. Horrible itchy, flakey, uncontrollable rashes. ( which I currently have from medication+ camping food+sun) So I am on detox.
You would think since I have been eating better now for years it would get easier, but it doesn't. Actually, I shouldn't say that- it is easier and I do crave good food. But every once in a while I want bad food and I wish I could get to a place to never want the bad food EVER!
This post comes at a time of: DAY 1 all over again of NO SUGAR!! No fruit, NOTHING. Today I had eggs with cilantro and chicken for breakfast. For lunch I had a arugula salad with chicken and for dinner I had free range ground beef with bell peppers. Today wasn't that hard but we will see how tomorrow goes.
I do this because I know sugar feeds disease. I also know I have candida. I want to be fully healthy. Plexus is helping me get there but I also need to do my part and I think the candida needs to be COMPLETELY starved if I am ever going to completely heal.
I have come so far from spending most days in bed- but I want to go farther. I want to reach the point that one day I can have that del taco burrito and it has no affect on me. I want to get to a place where I experience NO PAIN and I want to have strong muscles on my body. It's going to take time. I would love your prayers and encouragement along the way!! :) Thanks for reading!
Thursday, June 18, 2015
WHAT A GIFT I'VE BEEN GIVEN
If you've have followed this blog from the beginning you know that I was VERY sick and I was searching for something to HELP me and make me FEEL better. I wanted to find the protocol, the recipe, the regimen, the lifestyle, the trick that would allow me to LIVE so that I could share that things with others who were suffering like me.
When you go through a life experience that puts everything into perspective- you don't come back from it the same as you were before. I want to have it all be worth it. I want a new life from the one I lived before everything feel apart. There's a reason it all feel apart, there's a reason for all the pain and suffering I went through.
I feel amazingly blessed to finally have something I can share with others and say THIS COULD HELP YOU!!
I have gathered a lot of information over the process of becoming ill and learning about our bodies and how they operate and how food, stress and environment can affect our health. How we need nutrients to help our cells be healthy and protect us. Unfortunately, it takes a lot of work to give our bodies what they need. We treat our bodies like landfills rather then temples. I am the guiltiest of all. I would binge eat all kinds of junk food, I ate fast food regularly all my life, I rarely had vegetables, I never had home made bone broth, most my "food" came from a wrapper, box or can. And I just thought that was normal. I still have a long way to go but I have also come such a long way. And yes I am human and I want the occasional treat that I know is bad for me and it allows disease to thrive. It is a constant mental battle. But before plexus came into my life I could not have the occasional treat because of how it caused me complete disability. I was afraid to put anything in my mouth at all because it would hurt me. I got down to 103 pounds and I looked very sick. I felt ugly and sad. I felt like there was no way out.
I prayed that God would bring something/anything in my life that could allow me to live and not just exist. I prayed it would be something I could do on my own. My hands were so inflamed I could not cut a vegetable let a lone prepare a fresh meal. I also could not stand for more then 2 minutes without being completely fatigue and needing to sit. I would lay down and sleep on every car ride, in between the time the nurse left the room while waiting for the doctor to come in at EVERY visit. I slept all day while my daughter was at school and only stay awake 2-8pm each day.
My life is different know because God answered my prayer and brought me something that I could do. I drink a pink drink every morning called Slim. I just mix in a glass of water. I take a multi-vitamin, bio-cleanse and probiotic. These products have given me energy to stay awake all day and I mean all day as it is 11:30pm now. I have less pain and more strength each day. I will NEVER EVER stop telling other about PLEXUS. It changed my life and is a GIFT from God! <3
When you go through a life experience that puts everything into perspective- you don't come back from it the same as you were before. I want to have it all be worth it. I want a new life from the one I lived before everything feel apart. There's a reason it all feel apart, there's a reason for all the pain and suffering I went through.
I feel amazingly blessed to finally have something I can share with others and say THIS COULD HELP YOU!!
I have gathered a lot of information over the process of becoming ill and learning about our bodies and how they operate and how food, stress and environment can affect our health. How we need nutrients to help our cells be healthy and protect us. Unfortunately, it takes a lot of work to give our bodies what they need. We treat our bodies like landfills rather then temples. I am the guiltiest of all. I would binge eat all kinds of junk food, I ate fast food regularly all my life, I rarely had vegetables, I never had home made bone broth, most my "food" came from a wrapper, box or can. And I just thought that was normal. I still have a long way to go but I have also come such a long way. And yes I am human and I want the occasional treat that I know is bad for me and it allows disease to thrive. It is a constant mental battle. But before plexus came into my life I could not have the occasional treat because of how it caused me complete disability. I was afraid to put anything in my mouth at all because it would hurt me. I got down to 103 pounds and I looked very sick. I felt ugly and sad. I felt like there was no way out.
I prayed that God would bring something/anything in my life that could allow me to live and not just exist. I prayed it would be something I could do on my own. My hands were so inflamed I could not cut a vegetable let a lone prepare a fresh meal. I also could not stand for more then 2 minutes without being completely fatigue and needing to sit. I would lay down and sleep on every car ride, in between the time the nurse left the room while waiting for the doctor to come in at EVERY visit. I slept all day while my daughter was at school and only stay awake 2-8pm each day.
My life is different know because God answered my prayer and brought me something that I could do. I drink a pink drink every morning called Slim. I just mix in a glass of water. I take a multi-vitamin, bio-cleanse and probiotic. These products have given me energy to stay awake all day and I mean all day as it is 11:30pm now. I have less pain and more strength each day. I will NEVER EVER stop telling other about PLEXUS. It changed my life and is a GIFT from God! <3
Tuesday, June 16, 2015
Defined
Cellular auto-immune disease occurs because the host antigen recognition systems fail, and the immune system believes, by mistake, that a host antigen is foreign. As a result, the CD8+
T cells treat the host cell presenting that antigen as infected, and go
on to destroy all host cells (or in the case of transplant rejection,
transplant organ) that express that antigen.
Some of this section is a simplification. Many auto-immune diseases are more complex. A well-known example is rheumatoid arthritis, where both antibodies and immune cells are known to play a role in the pathology. Generally the immunology of most auto-immune diseases is not well understood.
Some of this section is a simplification. Many auto-immune diseases are more complex. A well-known example is rheumatoid arthritis, where both antibodies and immune cells are known to play a role in the pathology. Generally the immunology of most auto-immune diseases is not well understood.
Tuesday, April 7, 2015
Hears my cry for help
I am writing this post March 16th 2015. I have been crying out to God for healing forever, finally my pledding and begging changed and I asked God to do with my body as he pleased as His will is ultimately blessed. My prayers changed from asking for what I want to asking for what God wants even if that meant I remain sick and if it was going to be for His glory.
In December I started taking plexus it started helping me and I started sharing on facebook what it was doing for me. Other people that are not on facebook started asking me what I was doing differently because they just noticed I was getting healthier.
I read a side note in my bible tonight referring to Psalm 4:1-3 David rejoiced about God powerful protection. In times of distress our merciful Godis the perfect haven of rest. He is listening and he hears our crys for help. God wants us to put our trust in him, we insult him when we trust in our own resources or anything else to deliver us from our problems. When we turn our will and life over to God, we become his own chosen ones, whom he promises to hear when we call out to him.
Psalm 4:1 says Answer me when I call to you, O God who declares me innocent. Free me from my troubles. Have mercy on me and hear my prayer.
In December I started taking plexus it started helping me and I started sharing on facebook what it was doing for me. Other people that are not on facebook started asking me what I was doing differently because they just noticed I was getting healthier.
I read a side note in my bible tonight referring to Psalm 4:1-3 David rejoiced about God powerful protection. In times of distress our merciful Godis the perfect haven of rest. He is listening and he hears our crys for help. God wants us to put our trust in him, we insult him when we trust in our own resources or anything else to deliver us from our problems. When we turn our will and life over to God, we become his own chosen ones, whom he promises to hear when we call out to him.
Psalm 4:1 says Answer me when I call to you, O God who declares me innocent. Free me from my troubles. Have mercy on me and hear my prayer.
God is the Real Deal
My prayer for a loong time ( years) has been to heal. Everyday, multiply times I day I ask God to heal my body. Toward the fall of last year my prayer changed a bit. Instead of begging God to heal my body and take these diseases from it- I prayed that if I wasn't going to heal that He would allow me the capability of living while I am here. Not just suffering day in and day out. Not able to connect with others at all.
My prayer sounded like this:
Dear Lord, I have prayed and asked that you would heal me and have me wake-up and not be sick anymore. I pray now that if it is not your will for me to heal that you PLEASE, PLEEEEEASE give me a way to live and partake in life while I am still here. Please Lord, bring me something into my life that is going to HELP me. These are the things I desire: to be a capable mom and wife, to contribute to our home financially above my medical cost and to hopefully one day afford to put my daughter in private school. These are my desires of my heart. Amen
When I got pregnant my plan was to begin working full time when my daughter began kindergarten. I have my masters degree in school counseling. I coached basketball and substitute taught since she was 2. When kindergarten came along is when my RA symptoms began exasperating and one day of subbing made me extremely exhausted. I continued to push my body over the years continuing to do what I could with subbing and coaching. But there was flexibility there and no way could I handle a full-job. Because some days I just couldn't push no matter how hard I tired. As I pushed my body it was only progressing my disease on the inside and causing me more pain and disability.
As I share this with you it is after these times because during them I hide a lot and I just didn't have ANY strength to type, text or talk to anyone. I hide because I was scared and also because I wanted to spare others from hurting. If anyone close to me really saw how bad my circumstances were with their own eyes I'm not sure what their reaction would be. Do I regret it? Yes and No. Part of me regrets it because no one got to witness the worst parts- except my child and husband. But the part that is a blessing is what it has done for me and my family. It has brought us close and it has offered all 3 of us hearts of compassion for others suffering because we understand.
When I started taking plexus products toward the end of December. I didn't think in a million years it would help me but I tried anyway. I am sure you have heard or said before, " I will try anything to feel better." So I tired. Even as I began feeling better I didn't realize why because it was as soon as 7 days things were getting better but I didn't know why. By week 3 I knew it was from the plexus products. And I still know because last week I ran out before my auto shipment got here and I feel asleep in the afternoon all 3 days that I did not take my product. I was tired with less energy.
My friend Erin encouraged me to share via facebook on things I was noticing since I started taking plexus. I told her no a couple of times. I wasn't interested in sharing it or making money from it because I am for the first time barely able to get out of bed and I don't want to take anytime from my family and typing was still too much for me to do often ( or so I thought). She said " but Hollie what if by you sharing it helps ONE person in the same place you were in to stop suffering so much." And that was it. I decided to share. So I shared how I was able to push a shopping cart for the first time in a couple of years. The response I got was really crazy. Here all this time I felt like I was dead and I felt like many of my friends didn't really know or care about me anymore. But I was wrong. And it made me feel happy and it made me re-connected with people I love and miss!
One month to the day that I decided to put a post about plexus. I got a nice little chunk of money from plexus. It was an the amount of almost exactly what a one month private school payment would be. I got the chills and began crying. Could this be real? Could God be answering my prayer? Could He not only be giving me something that is helping me feel better but is He also allowing me to contribute more financially and all through one thing- plexus?
Stay tuned...
My prayer sounded like this:
Dear Lord, I have prayed and asked that you would heal me and have me wake-up and not be sick anymore. I pray now that if it is not your will for me to heal that you PLEASE, PLEEEEEASE give me a way to live and partake in life while I am still here. Please Lord, bring me something into my life that is going to HELP me. These are the things I desire: to be a capable mom and wife, to contribute to our home financially above my medical cost and to hopefully one day afford to put my daughter in private school. These are my desires of my heart. Amen
When I got pregnant my plan was to begin working full time when my daughter began kindergarten. I have my masters degree in school counseling. I coached basketball and substitute taught since she was 2. When kindergarten came along is when my RA symptoms began exasperating and one day of subbing made me extremely exhausted. I continued to push my body over the years continuing to do what I could with subbing and coaching. But there was flexibility there and no way could I handle a full-job. Because some days I just couldn't push no matter how hard I tired. As I pushed my body it was only progressing my disease on the inside and causing me more pain and disability.
As I share this with you it is after these times because during them I hide a lot and I just didn't have ANY strength to type, text or talk to anyone. I hide because I was scared and also because I wanted to spare others from hurting. If anyone close to me really saw how bad my circumstances were with their own eyes I'm not sure what their reaction would be. Do I regret it? Yes and No. Part of me regrets it because no one got to witness the worst parts- except my child and husband. But the part that is a blessing is what it has done for me and my family. It has brought us close and it has offered all 3 of us hearts of compassion for others suffering because we understand.
When I started taking plexus products toward the end of December. I didn't think in a million years it would help me but I tried anyway. I am sure you have heard or said before, " I will try anything to feel better." So I tired. Even as I began feeling better I didn't realize why because it was as soon as 7 days things were getting better but I didn't know why. By week 3 I knew it was from the plexus products. And I still know because last week I ran out before my auto shipment got here and I feel asleep in the afternoon all 3 days that I did not take my product. I was tired with less energy.
My friend Erin encouraged me to share via facebook on things I was noticing since I started taking plexus. I told her no a couple of times. I wasn't interested in sharing it or making money from it because I am for the first time barely able to get out of bed and I don't want to take anytime from my family and typing was still too much for me to do often ( or so I thought). She said " but Hollie what if by you sharing it helps ONE person in the same place you were in to stop suffering so much." And that was it. I decided to share. So I shared how I was able to push a shopping cart for the first time in a couple of years. The response I got was really crazy. Here all this time I felt like I was dead and I felt like many of my friends didn't really know or care about me anymore. But I was wrong. And it made me feel happy and it made me re-connected with people I love and miss!
One month to the day that I decided to put a post about plexus. I got a nice little chunk of money from plexus. It was an the amount of almost exactly what a one month private school payment would be. I got the chills and began crying. Could this be real? Could God be answering my prayer? Could He not only be giving me something that is helping me feel better but is He also allowing me to contribute more financially and all through one thing- plexus?
Stay tuned...
Friday, March 6, 2015
New Joys but still some worries...
Hi All,
I just wanted to give a quick update. So I told you about this cyst they found in January and I was hoping once the ob-gyn doctor checked it out he would have no concerns. And although it wasn't a huge concern he still wanted to send me off to check for high levels of some big word I don't remember; but it can be an indicator for ovarian cancer. He also wanted to order ANOTHER ultrasound to get a better look at it.
The cyst is 5.7cm at 6 cm he said they like to surgically remove them whether they are cancerous or not. So thankfully I am just under that mark. I do not want surgery.
This will be the 3rd " cancer scare" within the last few years and all the cancers have been different types. I been biopsied, had surgery, pet scanned, ct scanned, blood tested galore. I am tired- tired of being poked, and prodded and just being at the doctors in general.
I feel like the joy has just began because PLEXUS is helping me with my energy and I have done more in the last few months then I have in the last few years. I don't have to tell people- " let me see how I feel and I'll text you that day." I can plan stuff; put it on the calendar and feel confident I will have the energy and capability to be there and it feels so wonderful!!
But then this little hiccup makes me feel a bit sadden. I just for ONCE would like to go to the doctor and have them say- your all good- go home and enjoy your life. Instead I have to have the worry of cancer in the back of my head- as if dealing with my 6 other diagnosis isn't enough.
My prayer is that the cyst will be gone- no cancer and still to heal from these other diseases. Yes I feel a lot better because of the plexus products I am taking but I am not cured. (yet) and that is my hope and prayer!!
Thank you for reading and for your prayers!
I just wanted to give a quick update. So I told you about this cyst they found in January and I was hoping once the ob-gyn doctor checked it out he would have no concerns. And although it wasn't a huge concern he still wanted to send me off to check for high levels of some big word I don't remember; but it can be an indicator for ovarian cancer. He also wanted to order ANOTHER ultrasound to get a better look at it.
The cyst is 5.7cm at 6 cm he said they like to surgically remove them whether they are cancerous or not. So thankfully I am just under that mark. I do not want surgery.
This will be the 3rd " cancer scare" within the last few years and all the cancers have been different types. I been biopsied, had surgery, pet scanned, ct scanned, blood tested galore. I am tired- tired of being poked, and prodded and just being at the doctors in general.
I feel like the joy has just began because PLEXUS is helping me with my energy and I have done more in the last few months then I have in the last few years. I don't have to tell people- " let me see how I feel and I'll text you that day." I can plan stuff; put it on the calendar and feel confident I will have the energy and capability to be there and it feels so wonderful!!
But then this little hiccup makes me feel a bit sadden. I just for ONCE would like to go to the doctor and have them say- your all good- go home and enjoy your life. Instead I have to have the worry of cancer in the back of my head- as if dealing with my 6 other diagnosis isn't enough.
My prayer is that the cyst will be gone- no cancer and still to heal from these other diseases. Yes I feel a lot better because of the plexus products I am taking but I am not cured. (yet) and that is my hope and prayer!!
Thank you for reading and for your prayers!
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