Last January I was having surgery to check for lymphoma. I am glad to say it came back negative. Leading up to the surgery was the worse months of my life. Not only was I disabled but I was super sick, nauseous and in a fog.
I hit a break through in November 2014. Right after receiving all those iron infusions. I began having a little more energy. But there has been more. I have been able to dress myself since then, cook dinner without help, able to wash dishes and do things around the house that were impossible for me a year ago.
Yes, I am on some hardcore drugs now but I feel like I owe it to my family to be functional. I tried just about everything I could afford to try and get better without these vicous drugs but I was just getting worse and more disabled.
I am able to have the energy to search more, study more, and continue to try things, that I can't when I am without drugs because I can't even get out of bed.
I still have intense pain everyday but my body works. Yes, I want to be farther a long but I am grateful for the progress. These are my wishes for the future- increased strength and energy and one day to be able to play catch with my daughter. It's crazy to me that a couple years ago I was coaching basketball and getting out on the court with the girls shooting and playing and now I can't even lift my arms above my head for more then 10 seconds and that's improvement from just a few short months ago when I couldn't even do that.
Although there is so much to be grateful for as I have been able to live more lately. There is also so much uncertain for the future and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't worry about if Ill be around for Makenna's wedding and to meet my grandchild/ren one day. I feel like everything is bad news from the doctors even when I am doing my best to treat my body well.
Most recently, I went to the doctors right after Christmas because I thought my kidneys were hurting. They did a urine test which showed inflammation so they sent me off for an ultrasound of my bladder and kidneys. ( Lupus can cause kidney disease/disorder)
My doctors office called me a few days ago to tell me that the ultrasound showed no signs of kidney stones or anything but that they found a tangerine size cyst on one of my ovaries. So now onto more appointments to see what that is all about. I am asking for prayers because at this point I am worn and tired. Every time I try to get back to life they're are health road bumps and I can't plan tomorrow let a lone the future because I am at the mercy of my body and health. I WANT SO BADLY to heal!! Please keep me in your prayers and thank you for reading.
P.S. The thing I am trying now is Plexus. I have been on it since Dec 18th. There have been some testimonials stating healing of RA and other auto immune diseases. I will keep you guys posted.
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